How aware are you of the ongoing processes within the mind, from years of repetitive conditioning and false truth?
Fortunately, I have been exposed to the truth about the mind. Having that AWARENESS has led me to question these processes, and allow me to break free from long held, limited self beliefs. It is a working progress, each moment to moment, subject to losing awareness at any given time. But that's ok, because awareness of the mind was not taught when I was younger. Therefore, I am reprogramming everything that I once thought was the truth about myself, my family, and my outlook on life. I always had so many questions about my purpose here. Questions about why this, why that .... which led to a spiral of confusion, and eventually sucking me into a dark hole that I couldn't seem to crawl out from ...
I am reflecting upon sooo many memories at the moment. And all I can do is laugh, laugh at the ridiculousness of it all, the pain that ran through my soul when I was younger ... and I have risen above it! I am not perfectly healed, or whole, but I don't think most people are. There is an innate power within us that drives us to creation, to express ourselves, the yearning ... to yearn. I don't have the answers for every question but I have learned to be at peace with that. I spent years pondering existence, and if my true desire is to protect and help others, in return fulfilling the yearn in me through a synergistic relationship, all the thinking in the world without FORWARD ACTION ... is nothing more than a waste of precious energy.
It took me years to realize this. My journey has been unfolding in small increments, but sometimes I take a huge leap and cannot believe how fast my progression has become. Point is, there is no static time frame.
You have to train the mind in order to manifest what you want in life. Without training the mind, it runs wild, dictating the moves you don't necessarily want to make. It is the source of amazing creation, but also the source of immense pain and destruction.
For those who are sensitive and feel the pain of others, take that energy and use it as fuel to expand your love, and be strong for those who cannot stand up for themselves. IT TAKES MUCH STRENGTH TO BE BOLD, BUT IT'S THE ONLY WAY! It's the only way.
"A strong man cannot help a weaker unless that weaker is willing to be helped, and even then the weak man must become strong himself ... None but himself can alter his condition." -James Allen
"Weakness" cannot thrive in a POWER EVOLVING UNIVERSE.
Weakness, as in limiting self thoughts, conditioned habits, thought processes that hold you hostage from your true potential, and AIMLESSNESS IN LIFE, are some of the ingredients that add up to confusion, a stagnant life ..
The truth is that life is UNSATISFACTORY, IMPERMANENT, AND IMPERSONAL. Life will always have a twinge of unsatisfactoriness because we are creative beings, and will always yearn for more, to always experience. It is the energy in us that limbos between an animal and a spiritual being. Everything in life, even in the mind is impermanent, subject to change each and every moment. The attachment to the past, even to the joy of the present will fade. Everything fades and it's not an upsetting truth but a liberating one! If we let go of all the attachments we had, HOW FREE WOULD WE BE?! And everything is also impersonal. Many people allow external stimuli to affect their heart. The damage that we ALLOW into our soul is unbelievable. Torn through emotions and much pain ... when the truth is that everyone is the same. People bounce off each other, a mirror reflection, warped by confusion and separation due to ego, fear, and doubt. If we got rid of that, and understood that people who hurt, do so from their own source of pain, we could easily allow our heart to soften. We are all interconnected, even if one feels alone in the world. <--- FALSE TRUTH!
You have to catch these thought processes and call them out on their bullshit! It took me awhile, but I am so much stronger that I ever was before!
I know where my RIGHT INTENTION lies. Sometimes I feel as if who I am is not how people "see" me, but there is only so much to explain. I know where my true intention lies. It is not out of self gain in a malicious sense. It feels good to help another. It feels RIGHT to give a part of me when someone needs encouragement, hope, and strength. ALL I CAN BE, IS ME ....
Throwback, 1999 ... Ginuwine (ugh .. SEXY!) "Same Ol' G"
"I'm not trying to hurt nobody,
You only live once they told me.
You can't be mad at me,
I can just be 'G.'"
"Day after day,
I continue to be,
Me oh me,
That's all I can be.
Oooh day after day,
I continue to be me oh me,
Same ol' 'G.'"
LOL!
Sometimes I feel the need to defend myself, but then I question what really is going on? Can I look at the situation objectively? Can I come to an understanding from both ends, and tap into my true intention? All I can do is think of the other person, understand, and not take it personal. Mirroring presents a challenge if the person believes it to be a challenge. Otherwise, it is nothing more but a facade as with everything in existence.
We will always be discovering who we are. And frankly, things are looking up!
:)