REALITY CHECK!

"The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body, and although we can repress it, we can never alter it.  Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated, our conceptions confused, and our body tricked with medication.  But someday our body will present its bill, for it is as incorruptible as a child who, still while in spirit, will accept no compromise or excuses, and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth." - Alice Miller

Reality check!

Have I really come to terms with the past?  Have I even come close to understanding the art of letting go, letting be? ...  Forgiveness, especially toward myself, is foremost a daily, conscious practice.  I suppose LIFE has a way of testing me at the most critical moments.

Self-doubt creeps in as I'm being forced to face these situations straight on.  Whether I am prepared or not, it's happening.  I can retreat, fall back to the same response, or I can get a f'ing grip and DEAL.  Deal without being angry, resentful, or frustrated.  I can chose to deal in a way that doesn't add on to my current stress, and CHOSE TO BE FREE.

Life doesn't have to be so painful with attachments.  We will surely suffer until we let go...

Coming to terms with a potential death in the family.  Someone.. the only person, who can openly express to me that unconditional love a child needs, may leave this world soon ... leaving me with a void I am not sure has healed.  It is not his job, but my own .. to mend it.  I suppose it's the selfish talk we all have when we lose someone when we are not yet ready.

Attachments are normal.  It's normal to feel pain ... yet that doesn't satisfy me one bit...

It feels as if the old conditioning is subconsciously telling me, "I'm not worthy.  You won't be able to find that same unconditionality."

I don't really believe it.  I have trained my mind long and strong enough to not believe that old self talk, but my body has been taking a toll.  I suppose allowing my body to feel the sensations of stress is much more tolerable than all the mental stress.  Either way, STRESS IS NOT HEALTHY.

**I made a commitment to myself, in my early twenty's, to take care of myself: body, mind, and soul.  I made that commitment with all of my being.  No matter if I falter, I get back on track.**

I am my number one priority.

Life has shown me that the only person who will have your best interest at heart is your higher self.  Without that, external factors will sway you wildly.

No thank you.

This does not stem from a reclusive perspective or a selfish one.  Without strengthening yourself, you give from an unsure place.  Just imagine the amount of good intention you can create, when you have built a core foundation from within, and you are able to give without an ounce of drawback.

REALITY CHECK!

Self-doubt will always be a creeper, but I noticed that the duration has significantly reduced to hrs, if not minutes.  AIN'T NOBODY GOT TIME FOR THAT! HAHA...

I don't have time to be emotional about situations that prevent me from achieving my dreams.  I don't believe in a mediocre life.  I know that my purpose here is to impact others, to share my story, and to spread that joy and knowledge in order to heal and proliferate a happy life!


As for stress, PHYSICAL ACTIVITY is the savior!  We all need to push our bodies to a certain extent and RELEASE THAT ENERGY, which holds on to whatever feeling tone it may be.  Make sure it is a daily component in your life, as is the air we breathe, and the natural types of food we put into our bodies.  Guard your mind and KEEP LIVING YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST!

As told to me by a little 19 yr old. HA!